I was busy feeling sorry for myself yesterday. I was frustrated because every task that needs to be done is my task because I am single. I was sinking into self pity and couldn’t seem to pull myself out. It made me mad at my sister, at my friend, at my kids dad. It was frustrating and I did initially run to my crutches to try to medicate the self pity. I took my kids out to froyo and we had such a fun time. We ate ice cream and played Uno inside. Then we went outside and I watched them play with Hoola hoops and jump ropes and laugh and smile and the sun shone a little brighter and then a smile lit up on my face. I saw them and the blessing I have and thought how uselessly ungrateful I have been. Having things I have to do, means I have things that are worth taking care of. I should be grateful, not grumbling. As I continued to pray and consider this morning, God showed me another truth. I have great authority.
I realized this when an employee of mine had some nasty attitude with me about her rating dropping at work, which I have no control over and in fact only she has the ability to harm or help herself. When she was rude, I spoke with such an authority as she has never seen. I was not cruel or mean, but explained that she can not blame the company or say she is “losing confidence” in a business that is giving her the opportunity to grow and correct the issues and that has not lost confidence in her, but that does have fair and equivalent consequences for both positive and negative actions. After my talk with her, she was speechless. I am always extremely friendly and kind and I was kind, but firm and spoke with great authority.
It made me realize that this is given from God. He gave me a business to run, then through wise stewardship by Gods leading, I gained the authority to run the business well. God gave me two children to raise, then through wise stewardship by Gods leading, I gained the authority to speak into my kids lives and lead them well. God have me a home to maintain and enjoy, and then through wise stewardship by Gods leading, I have gained the authority to maintain, clean, and make good decisions for the maintenance of my home. In fact everything I have was first given, then by following Gods leading, I will be able to steward it and gain authority over it. God is so good to have shown me this.
The best way to gain authority over something is not to bully, fight, or claw. It’s to wait for God to give it to you. If he hasn’t given it to you, He may still, but now is not the right time for you to have it. For example, I am not chasing a marriage, because God has not decided to give me this. He may some day, but I will never have authority over something God has not first initiated. But once God does initiate it, the next step is to pursue Gods leading. When He gives it, He will maintain it. So pursue His will, and you will know His will by reading His Word and praying. This is called good stewardship as you continue to pursue Gods will in this gift He has given. Over time, the natural gifting of authority over that gift will come.
Then you will be able to see things more clearly and develop gratitude.
God, you know what. You have given me great authority. You gave me a chance in the business and I stepped up. You gave me leadership in my home and I stepped up. I am in control of my business, my employees, my kids, my home. I am not a slave. I have great authority. People must respect me and listen. I am so grateful. It’s not a curse to have to do everything alone. It’s a blessing to have the authority over the things you have given me. It’s a strength, not a weakness. In fact, I often have said I shouldn’t have to do all of this because I am a woman, but because I am a woman and have a meek and kind nature, all the more my authority is emphasized when I do speak with authority, because it is not in my day to day character to act in this way, but it highlights Your strength in me. My weakness shows off your strength.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
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