I had a dream last night. I was remembering the things in my life and they were two-dimensional. Living in Virginia in college, my honeymoon in Japan, living out here in Tulsa now. Looking at the people, it was the same thing. My ex husband and his family. Jay’s family and my family. All of the friends we’ve made. All of the things in life that used to make me happy and that do make me happy were so flat.
I saw those things standing up in front of me as buildings, but they weren’t actually buildings. They were literally flats, like you see in theatre or in the movies. Painted realistically to look like a building, but it was just a frame, propped up. None of it was really heavy or real or substantial. Still I wanted them. My desires rose up in front of me too. I was navigating through the flats, pushing things around, trying to make things line up into my life as I desired.
And then God pulled me up and away from it to see His perspective. He laid down this piece of glass from heaven and it sat down over the top of all of the flats. “This is My Will.” And I stood on top of the glass. It was smooth and easy in front of me, standing on the glass, that is His will. When I looked down, all of my desires and everything in my life was under my feet. It was all below me and it was unimportant. It didn’t stand in front of me, cluttering up my life. It was all attainable and already mine, because it was underneath me, and I also didn’t have to organize it. Also, my life took on a new dimension. Now I could walk 3 dimensionally. I knew that all of these things were mine. I don’t have to fight for them, hold onto them or chase them. I don’t have to struggle to navigate the world to get to them. How did I get all of the desires of my heart? By walking in God’s Will.
Psalm 37:4 “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
There was much more to this dream. The reality of this world was 2d, flat, unimportant, unreal, a front. The reality of God’s will was 3d, full, significant, real, truth. I don’t want to waste my life chasing fake, when I could have God’s will that is real.
Matthew 16:26 “What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?”
I don’t give up the things of this earth by following God’s will. I actually gain all of them. I am blessed, overwhelmed, flourishing when I walk in His will. I was walking over them. These things were under my feet. They were already mine. I had all of them. I could also see the blessings further, the expanse was greater, and so much more easily attainable, because I was walking above it. It didn’t matter to me either. I wasn’t looking up at it gawking, as if it was an idol. I was looking from above, so I saw it, enjoyed it, and then praised the Lord who gave me His will, the glass I was walking on. I gained all of these things, because of Him.
Matthew 6:33 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
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